just mind your own damn business

for the past six weeks i've been bringing my girlfriend to work every morning at 5am .and i don't mind getting up that early because i love her .not to mention the fact that she has to have a job if she wants to stay here .to start off with it was weird her not being here during the day and i missed her a lot .i guess i'm more use to her not being here during the day now though i still miss her being around .and i like to kiss and hug her when i drop her off .wish her a good day and so forth

this morning there were two women standing outside by the front door smoking and talking to one another and we pulled up .stop .i hug and kiss her and since she drove there i had to get out and get in the driver seat .i grabbed her lunch from the floor and walked to the front of the car where i met her again and once more hugged and kissed her .handed her her lunch and told her to have a good day .after she walked off and inside the building one of the women that was standing out front said "bye, i miss you already" .i laughed cause i though it was funny .i still do think its funny .but then i wonder why she would say something like that .and i think she was jealous of amilia and i

milk

i love milk .2% .whole .i'm not to much a fan of the skim milks but i'll drink them .i use to drink a lot of milk day and night for breakfast and midnight snacks but now that i don't sleep alone i can't drink it at night any more .it sucks too because i love having a snack before i go to sleep .but something in the milk makes me snore and since i'm sharing the bed with my girlfriend and my snoring wakes her .i don't drink the milk .so she's able to get sleep and get up to go to work .not much sweet food tastes good without milk but its a sacrifice i'll make

laser engraver

i really want one but the budget models cost 5 thousand dollars .and the nice ones capable of cutting things are 30 thousand .there is a company called epilog lasers which makes the nice 30 thousand dollar models .what i don't understand is how a small machine like that can cost so much and a CNC plasma cutter capable of cutting a piece of steel 8' by 4' only cost 10 thousand .of coarse the plasma cutter isn't able to engrave but i think it'd be more able to make more things then a laser engraver .but of coarse i want them both

i do have a small shot in the dark and that needle in the haystack called a laser engraver .a very awesome website called instructables.com is having a contest where the grand prize is epilog lasers newest model of cutter .you have to enter something an "awesome project with a green twist" .i'm not sure if i'm capable of epic but i know i can do green .i hate spending money on new materials when you can just find the materials you need laying around .i suppose i could enter the boomerang and jewelry box i'm making out of oak that i got from the fire wood pile .i know i'm going to need a lot of luck and i guess prayers wouldn't hurt either but i don't know if it's something god should be bothered over

wait

i'm there with you .i recently filed for SSI .which stands for something i don't recall but whatever .its income for me since i can't work .the only problem is its going to take 4-6 months for an answer .MONTHS .i new government was slow but damn that's insane .i already hate to wait but when i know how long i'll have to wait its more painful as time seems to slow down only to torture me

i did go ahead and get a lawyer already to assist me in getting the disability benefits so maybe with him it'll go a little faster .but i somehow doubt it

i'm not an early riser

i hate getting up in the morning .but for the next three weeks and the three weeks past i've been having to get up early to bring my girlfriend to work .i love her .but like i said i'm not a morning person

i guess people do come threw

i don't remember if i talked about the jackass from china saying the ring on ebay would ship for free and then him asking for 2 more dollars for shipping .well it turns out complaining works .i sent him a message telling him that if he didn't return my money i would ask paypal to decide for us both .so the man refunded my money and will keep the ring i had won .which i guess is ok since i'm getting my money back for it .it was a cool ring though .anywho i had bought a different ring from the same seller and have been waiting and waiting and finally it has arrived .i figured that it was a scam this dude had set up .because i had seen the exact ring i bought for sell by other sellers .several other sellers in fact .i guess its no surprise that other people were selling a "one of a kind ancient tibetan ring" but i guess we have hopes don't we?

you must be a total idiot

if you're getting into your car at a parking lot and your door is close to the other car next to you .you really need to pay attention to whether or not that other car is on .last night my girlfriend and i went out to eat and then to a movie .and when we got to the van after the movie we both got in .i started the van .the space in front of me was empty so i planned to pull straight threw there .i put the van in drive and as i pull forward no more then a foot i hear this crunch of metal coming from the back .i of coarse stopped and looked back to see that the idiot next to me had opened his door into the side of the van so when i pulled forward it wedged his door into the side causing minor scratches and a six inch dent .that is about an inch deep .before i could even put the car in reverse the man knocked on the back of the van as if to say "hey you have my door" .so i put the van in reveres and slowly backed up about a foot freeing the door from the van's side .i got out and walked around to see how much damage had been done and the douche bag was only concerned about his door .not the van he unintentionally dented do to his carelessness .i really had no idea what to say to the guy and he was acting as if he was stoned or something .it could have been he was just a moron but i'm not sure .so when i saw the dent i told him i knew it wasn't totally his fault although i think it was more his then mine .i just said "uuuuh have a nice night man" shook his hand and went back to the drivers seat of the van .when i got in amilia asked how bad it was and i told her and as i thought more about it i figured i better get his name at least so i didn't get reamed my parents .so i got out and asked the man to his information and he handed me his license and told me "i'm not going to be here tomorrow i'm shipping back to iraq" and i told him i was only getting it due to it being my mom's van .i copied the info off his ID and handed it back to him .wished him luck in iraq and that was it .though when i was next to his window i saw a woman holding what i assumed to be their kid .just a baby under a year old .she didn't even have the child in a car seat .just had it on her lap laying on it's back .that's the mentality of the people that open doors without being aware of whats going on around them

help someone out and get sued!

i just saw that a woman is suing her former co-worker for helping her out of a car when they got in a wreck .the woman is now a paraplegic and claims she would have rather taken her chances in the car and waited for help to arrive the having been pulled out .the man who pulled her our did so thinking the car might catch on fire .and i think most people in his situation would have done the same thing .yet this ungrateful bitch is going to sue him for only having good intent and trying to help

i bet the poor man is wishing he'd left the bitch in the car and torched it himself .what the hell is this world coming to when you can't help someone out of a tough spot without fear of consequences .on the show seinfeld the group was sued for NOT helping the victim of a mugging .the small town they were in had passed the law saying if someone was in trouble you had to help them or else you were breaking the law .i know that's a television show but it's going to an extreme .i think you should have the right to either help or ignore someone in need .without fear of being held responsible for any malice acts later on .but that's just me

cats

i'm not sure if it's their small head or their standoffish ways but cats freak me out .well i guess that's not true .they don't creep me out or freak me out but i just don't like them .i in fact hate them .their tiny heads and huge eyes .their crap stinking so much worse then anything you've smelt before .and the way dogs love the smell of it so much if they can they will eat it .or possibly roll in it .the only thing worse then cats .is guys who like them those guys do creep me out

yesterday a cat showed up in our backyard and i did what i usually do when that happens and i let my dog out to run it off .cow's an awesome dog and he listens to me when i tell him to stop so he doesn't get scratched to shreds .the cat got the picture that this yard was taken .well .it got the picture for a short time .it was back later that night and my girlfriend god bless her hates to see any living thing in trouble .so she picks it up much to my dismay .only bonding with it making the dumb cat think it belongs here .this morning when i woke up the damn thing was there again .amilia (my girlfriend) and i went to get a weed eater for my brother to do the yard and when we returned my mom and both nephews were in the backyard with the cat .and had not only feed it but had named it .i yelled to my mom "you named it?!? .you only name stuff if you're going to keep it" .i didn't hear a response form her but i'm not sure any response would have put aside my hatred for the felines

tracking cookies and wholesale bags

tracking cookies piss me off .i hate seeing the stuff i've searched for in ads on the side of the screen on myspace and other internet pages .its just a hassle for me .recently and well i guess still currently i've been looking for small (3''x4'') suede drawstring bags .its not been an easy search .not for ones at wholesale prices anyway .my search brought me to nextag and those sneaky bastards have been putting ads on my pages .i feel violated

i have found plenty of suede bags selling for 5 and 6 dollars each .and then i did find one supplier selling them for .35 cents each .the only problem with that is you have to buy a minimum of 100 bags .so they'd be 35 dollars not including shipping .on top of that what am i going to do with 100 little bags .i mean if i had a buyer who wanted 75 or so why i'd sell them to that person for 1 dollar a peace seeing as i got them for less then .50 cents a piece and i'd make a nice profit .but i honestly have no idea who would want to buy 75 suede bags .i could buy 200 velvet bags of the size and type i want but they're velvet .those i'm sure i could resell fairly easily

i grew it i should keep it

i really don't understand why we grow hair and finger and toe nails only if we have to cut them off .personal grooming is one thing i really despise having to do .shaving my head .trimming my nails .cleaning out my ears .brushing my teeth .and showering .hell just having to type all of that now has got me feeling lethargic .i guess i can understand why we have fingernails .needing them to pick and pry things and i suppose i get why they grow needing to be replaced when they are damaged .toenails too .though we don't pry with them any more our monkey predecessors did .but what the hell .we don't need them anymore lets chuck them already

hair on the other hand (if you're a masturbate chronically ) has no purpose and all we do is grow it and cut it .taking time away from what i'd like to do .like doing nothing .and there has to be a way to combine a shower and brushing your teeth in one step .maybe there should be a toothpaste/body wash/mouth rinse .there's a million dollar ideal no ones capitalized on yet .i mean hell there is already body wash/shampoo .it can't be that hard to make one that cleans your teeth too could it? and as a plus your whole body could have a minty fresh smell .although the act of brushing my teeth does make me sigh .i do love the feeling of clean squeaky teeth underneath my tongue

weather sure is a hell of a thing

especially in this part of the country .that part would be southeast texas .last week on the 11th we had actual snow fall .and it stayed on the ground rather then melting away as soon as it hit .like it has tended to do in the past if we were lucky enough to see some flurries or sleet .but this time everything was right for the snow to not only fall but to stick around for awhile .until the sun came up that is the last time it snowed a measurable amount was in 1989 .like 30 years ago or something i suck at math .but there were hours of enjoyable snow play for many of us .there were snowmen built and snow ball fights .and of coarse numb fingers and nippy noses

the snow and fun that went along with it reseeded as the sun arose .that all being just four short days ago .today .we have our air conditioner on .the weather out side is overcast but in the low 70s .anyone not use to it is in for a shocker if they come to this area .my girlfriend being from michigan use to the cold was a little taken back when i told her she needed to pack winter and summer clothes .but that's a typical winter for southeast texas area .summer is hot and humid

you already said you would

it really claps my jing when someone agrees to do something for you .then later decides they're not going to .i asked my dad if he would bring me to the airport to pick up my girlfriend on the 16th .i asked him that several weeks ago .and he told me if i helped him cut the tree that had fallen on his storage building and find a new window for the car .hat he would .so i found a new window and helped him cut the tree .i figured that he'd have forgotten by now so i asked him a again if he'd drive me to the airport .he got this look on his face like i was absolutely crazy all because i didn't wake up this morning and watch my nephews .first off i never agreed to and second off .i already did what he asked me to for him to bring me .yet its never good enough for him .he does this crap all the time .he'll agree to do something .IF you do something for him in exchange of coarse .then he continues to tack on more stuff you have to do for him if you want his help .yet i'm constantly helping him move his crap from one place to another without any expectation of help .i guess i'm one of the rare people these days that is still willing to do something for someone else just because .that's how i do believe god would have anted it .not having us be kind to one another just to get something in return .this is one more reason the world is in the crapper .if you want to help save it .help someone without any expectation of gain in return .like brandy .shes one of the few that does things out of kindness

first time being proactive

i know i have written a lot on the many many things the frustrate me .but i think it is time to at least have one positive blog as there are many more blogs of things and people that piss me off but for now here's one thing you can do to combat the endless stream of frustration that comes your way

stay positive .things are usually not as bad as they first appear .sometimes things seem much worse simply because we’re tired or mentally drained .taking a break and remembering to keep your sense of humour can also help this time of frustration will pass .a positive mind is far more open to solutions and answers than a negative one that thinks it’s just hopeless and thinks .what’s the use? .a closed mind will not be able to see the possible solutions when they do come along .so try to stay positive

if you're going to lie .at least make it believable

i hate liars .you should know if you read my blogs .sooo i'll take it you didn't know that so i'll tell you again .i HATE liars .i don't see the point of it .the truth will come out and i think it should come out on my terms .i know not every one thinks the same way because the world is full of liars .people that lie for absolutely no reason .well i guess other then to see if they can get away with it .like one guy i know of lied and said he was the person who came up with the "atm" abbreviation for "At The Moment" .even if he did come up with that on his own .i guarantee he wasn't the first .and then you have the mother of all lies .al gore .not only is he an idiot for every other reason you can think of .he's an idiot for thinking he had anything to do with the creation of the internet .i know you've probably heard jokes of him claiming he invented the internet .and those all stem from his comments on a late night interview on CNN with wolf blitzer .which aired on march 9th 1999 .he was asked what separated him from the competition .his response in part was "during my service in the united states congress ,i took the initiative in creating the internet" .although he didn't outright say he invented the internet .he sure was taking an ass load of created and more then likely wanting you to believe he invented it .hes a peice of work that could easily supply topics of daily blogging for years .in the interview he went on to say "i took the initiative in moving forward a whole range of initiatives...." well hell .no wonder he was confused and thought he had anything to do with the creation of the internet .if i was taking initiative to move forward other initiatives i'd not have any time do anything else but figure out what in the name of god that even works .only in al gore's world can initiative be taken to move forward initiative

and if you would like to who actually invented the internet .it was originally developed by DARPA .the Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency .as a means to share information on defense research between involved universities and defense research facilities .originally it was just email and FTP sites as well as the usenet where scientists could question and answer each other .it was originally called ARPANET (Advanced Research Projects Agency NETwork). The concept was developed starting in 1964 .and the first messages passed were between UCLA and the stanford research institute in 1969 .leonard kleinrock of MIT had published the first paper on packet switching theory in 1961 .since networking computers was new to begin with, standards were being developed on the fly .once the concept was proven .the organizations involved started to lay out some ground rules for standardization

to be or not to be .as long as you don't forget me

i'm sure we all know how it feels to have been forgotten at one time or another .it sucks .you want to say "hey what about me?" but at the same time you don't because what if you weren't forgotten? rather left out on purpose .more then often that's no the case though .and you know as bad as they feel for having forgotten you .you always feel worse for being forgotten .thinking you're not important enough to been seen as a member of the group

today i was forgotten .i'm almost certain it wasn't on purpose .as you would know if you have read a couple of my blogs is that i have chronic fatigue syndrome .in the mornings i'm given concerta .its the generic brand of ritalin and in adults it acts as speed .i need to get my sleeping ass up and going in the morning .though it doesn't get me going just makes it hard for me to sleep .anyway this morning i woke up and it was about 10:30 .usually i remember being given my medicine and this morning i didn't. so after i got dressed i went into the kitchen and there was sitting my pill bottle still containing my medicine .so i took it and i'm waiting for it to kick in .but honestly i just want to go back to sleep

like i said i'm pretty certain that i wasn't forgotten on purpose .but it still doesn't help getting the feeling of being forgotten all the times before .remembering the feeling of sitting there thinking "did they forget me?" .its never a fun feeling .well that is unless you're trying to be forgotten and then of coarse you're always remembered

height is an issue

i hear a lot of vertically challenged people complain on how they hate being short .and to an extent i can empathises .but for the most part i think its total crap .this world is built for people how are around 5'7'' .which is the average height of the american male .i'm 6'1'' so i can easily reach most things that the shorter people have put up high for whatever reason .but i get them for them .i try not to let my height go to my head .what really gets to me about being taller is that since every thin is built for people who are shorter then myself .i'm constantly whacking, banging, and knocking the crap out of my head on everything .our microwave is a built in vent-a-hood so its up higher .so i'm the one who gets told i have to wipe it out even though i'm never the one to leave my food uncovered and get it dirty .it just really pisses me off some times that i'm suppose to feel bad because you're short .being tall like i'm trying to tell you isn't all its cracked up to be .i want the tall life you think i have .that'd be nice .yet i don't get to have it .i have to constantly duck to avoid hitting my head .and hurt when i forget to duck .i have to deal with a cramped back from stooping to was anything in the bathroom sink .being uncomfortable sitting in chairs that i'm not proportioned for .so next time you think it sucks being short .just remember its not all peachy being tall .this world was built by shorter people to fit the needs of the short people

greedy people

if i said i was never greedy i would be lying .i do try never to be greedy .and more often then not i tend to be a giver .what pisses me off more the normal little every day things is when i see greed grabbing hold of someone .it fascinates me at the same time but it pisses me off more .i really hate to see when someone takes more then what they need .and more often then not don't end up using it .this often happens when something is being given away for free .they person tends to gorge on it like if the y don't get as much as they can they'll die .like i said it is interesting to watch but at the same time its frustrating because its taking away from someone who could have gotten but didn't

i think greed is the reason the economy has been going down further and further .the price of gas is down now but every that was inflated to adjust for the higher gas price .hasn't come down accordingly .like air travel .checked baggage fees were put in place do to higher fuel cost and they have yet to be dropped back to free checked bags .greed is the only problem here .the airlines have seen people will pay the fee so rather then doing away with it .they keep it to knowing its just profit .and when i'm separated away from my money for a reason i find greedy .i get mad

i thought computers were suppose to know stuff

i'll be the first to tell you i'm a horrible speller .if it wasn't for spell checker i really don't believe that you'd be able to make out what i'm trying to tell you .though sometime my spelling is so jacked that the spell check has no idea for suggestions .that's when i go to yahoo and use the american heritage dictionary to see if they can figure out what i'm trying to spell .the only problem there is when they put the "did you mean" option with a highlighted and click-able suggestion .its a hit and miss but there are times that suggests exactly what you wanted .so you click on it and it brings you to a page telling you there are no results .well why the hell did you suggest it if you knew there weren't any results .i know it knew too .its just being an ass and jerking us around .it pretty bad when technology is making fun of you .seriously all i want to do is figure out how off i was with my spelling so that the three people who actually read these blogs will know what i'm trying to say .but instead i get made an ass of by a computer .that's fantastic for my self esteem too .i don't have low self esteem but when a computer that lacks sarcasm as well as a sense of humor all together its a low blow .a really low blow which i think is better then just a regular low blow because the really low blow misses your "tenders"

well snap to it

it kinda pisses me off that no one has invented a teleportation system yet .seriously how hard could making a machine to tear atoms apart .transport them via solar radiation and reassemble them anywhere on earth .why the hell is that so hard? if i was a tiny bit more familiar with solar radiation and atomic realignment (already knowing atomic deconstruction) .i'd have made it my damn self .but since we don't have anything like that .and i'm not more knowledgeable on the subject of solar radiation and atom re alignment .i have to wait days .even weeks for something i've bought to be shipped from where ever to me .and if you've read any of my blogs you should know i hate waiting .yet i'm a chronic procrastinator and no i'm still not sure how they manage to coexist yet they do .so i have to wait .and wait .and wait .and making it worse like i said yesterday .the stupid damn protesters shut down the bangkok airport halting my emerald from getting her for me .once its here i'm of coarse going to hoard it and stroke it and look at it and tell it how pretty it is .i'm kidding of coarse .kidding about everything but the hoarding .i wish i had more money because i'd buy a lot of gold and bury it in my backyard .but i digress .i really hate having to wait for something i've bought to be shipped to me .every time i hear a large truck go by i'm hoping it's a fedex or ups truck with my precious stuff .and that's no way to live

auctions

i'm kinda loving ebay but hating it at the same time .i'm currently trying to buy a tablet pen mouse so i can draw on my computer .but i always get out bid .i don't think i should have to pay more then 40 dollars for it .plus the 10 dollars for the shipping .i could get a new better model at the store for 70 bucks though it doesn't come with any editing or drawing software as the one on ebay does .but still i don't believe i should have to pay more then 40 for it .the seller seems to have an endless supply posting a new one every time one sells .the page says they are factory sealed as well .i know i'm being a tight ass being so frugal with my money but i hate parting with it .though you might not really know it as i have bought other things on ebay that i don't need .i guess i don't need the drawing tablet either but i have more use for it then i do a loose emerald that i bought .the emerald action was about to end and no one had bid on it so i bid the minimum $9.99 bid and won it .it is a lab created stone but that just means its less flawed then a natural one .i hope i've not been ripped off paying 10 bucks for a piece of green glass .and i also hope that when i finally get the emerald it will appraise for more then the $10 i paid .one good thing about it is that shipping was free .but i received an e-mail from the person telling me that the bangkok airport was shut for 10 days and it will be delayed getting here .i did look online and found that protesters did do something to ruin it for me causing all flights in and out of the airport to be delayed .stupid protesters .but seriously i want this tablet and i hope no arse out bids me this next time

adam sandler

the majority of his films leave a cheap metallic taste in my mouth .i'll sum up the entire plot of happy gilmore, billy madison, i now pronounce you chuck and larry,the wedding singer, little nicky, mr. deeds, 50 first dates, the water boy, and the worst of then yet .you don't mess with the zohan .the plot is .man (adam sandler's character) falls in love with a woman he ,for some dumb ass reason or another can't have for the whole movie .only to find a way to make it work by the end of the movie .well woop te doo and poo on you cause you bought the ticket, movie or rented it

i have not seen all of his movies so i can't lump them all together .not only that but he also produces films the leave you lacking the want to even care it wasn't a better movie .the hot chick, the animal, the master of disguise .i'm now noticing that a lot the films the he produced and sucked were films staring rob schneider.

the one movie i did like of adam sandlers was punch drunk love .which is about Barry Egan (adam sandler) a small business owner with seven sisters whose nit picking has kept him alone and unable to fall in love. When a harmonium and a mysterious woman (Emily Watson) enters his life, his romantic journey begins .its no wonder its a good movie since he had no hand in the writing or producing of it .only made better by his co-star and one of the greatest living actors philip seymour hoffman .in conclusion .adam sandler has acting talent and i will give him that .but as far as writer and a producer falls way short of what i would think the hollywood standard should be

what happened to all or nothing?

what did happen to the all or nothing mind set .i know we are in a bit of an economic slump world wide but still i think we should go full bore or no bore at all .it really chaps my nipples when i see someone picking and choosing when they have no place reason to be choosing .things come packaged in sets and kits for a reason .and that reason is because everything in that set or kit goes together .like back in school you couldn't pick the best player without getting a slow uncoordinated one with them .its like the balance of the universe depends on it .so don't be an ass and break stuff up .take it all or leave it all

all that being said last night i saw some ice cream scoops in the sink .which by its self is like pulling a hair off my balls .i honestly don't see whats so hard about washing it off right then and putting it up but anyway i saw the scoops in the sink and thought (after the anger of them being dirty) "oooOOOooo ice cream" .i wasn't hungry for it at the time but i still went to the freezer and looked to see if there was any left .which there was some half "homemade vanilla" and half "dutch chocolate" .i'm not a fan of plan vanilla but like this blog is about .i knew it was all or nothing (meaning no chocolate without any vanilla) .so i shut the freezer door and went back to my room .later on i got hungry and it was getting close to bed time so i decided ice cream would be a good snack .i went to the kitchen .pulled the tub out of the freezer .pried the top off and wouldn't you know it .someone had scooped out all but a tiny bit of chocolate leaving the vanilla damn near untouched .the site of that made me extremely pissed me off and needless to say but i'll say it anyway i didn't have any ice cream and left a rather poignant note that reads "who's the ass that ate only the chocolate?"

isn't it an oxymoron

i hate waiting .absolutely hate it .and i'm having to wait right now for the 16th which is when my girlfriend is flying in from the holidays .its only twp weeks which doesn't seem like that long of a time but when you count down the days it drags on for a seeming eternity .i miss her intolerably and there's nothing i can do to speed time up .all i can do is wait .well i guess i can try to keep busy to keep my mind else where .but it drifts back to the clock and calender .it can't help but drift there because i know its only a matter of time before my girlfriend is here with me again

i really don't get how i can procrastinate yet still be horribly impatient .i don't think those to qualities should be able to exist in one person but i'm sure i'm not the only one to posses them .seriously how can i hate to wait but knowingly put off doing things .i mean really .why the hell wouldn't i do something since i have control over it .since having to wait on the things i don't have control over drives me insane .shouldn't i explode or implode or some sort of plode having both these qualities?

the nerve

i know its probably not a shock to any of you that you have to pay to check a bag on to an airline when you fly .it didn't use to be like that .checked bags use to be included in the price of your ticket .and should still be .the price of gas has dropped dramatically since they started charging .yet since they have enacted the fee and know people are paying they are of coarse not going to retract it .it really pisses me off to .$15 may not sound like a lot but its $30 if you're flying round trip which just about everyone is doing .and $30 still isn't that much money .its more the principal of the matter to me

i flew on north west airlines at the end of september and i was aware of the charge i was given a paper saying that checked bags on domestic flights were free .i of coarse guessed it was out of date yet no where on this paper did it say that it was subject to change .i contacted NWA about this and they offered me a $50 electronic voucher .what ever the hell that is .yet no attempt at a refund was offered .i'm not sure how you can offer me $50 yet say you're not going to give me $30 .i guess they fail to see the simple math and that they would be keeping $20 .it's not to surprising to me either .i mean this is a company that charges you if you want anything to during the flight .no free tiny pack of peanuts but you could have a free drink .i think they need some major restructuring of their company if they are that desperate for money .i feel bad for delta since the two companies have since merged .if you fly .complain about the fee .if you don't let your voice be heard no change will ever happen

christmas is coming

i know it's coming because i have heard it on it's way .it's a noisy bitch too .i think its the only holiday that you can actually hear on its way .thanksgiving doesn't even gobble .not even halloween with all the screaming kids is as noisy as christmas .black friday is when you hear it coming .its high pitched ringing standing out side of ever major store

i'm talking about the annoying coin collector of the salvation army .i honestly don't know how they stand there ringing their bell for hours on end .the high pitched ringing drives me mad .yet day after day from thanksgiving to christmas they are out in force .i think i'd rather them ask me for change like a bum rather then them ringing the bell .its really bad because the second you get out of your car you you hear it .and it only gets louder as you walk up to the entrance

i don't remember which store it was but several years back wal-mart or target banned the salvation army from collecting in front of their stores .and i applauded them .yet most of the public condemned them saying it wasn't right not to let them collect .the store claimed their ringing bells annoyed customers .and they're right .well at least it annoys this customer .i've thought many times of offering the bell ringer money for his bell .yet i never do because then i'd have a bell i have no purpose for .and i'm sure the ass would just get another bell the next day

if you plan to go missing at least let me know

well i am relieved .not because i just peed or took a huge .well anyway i'm relived because my brother is ok .for a while we had no idea where he was or if he was ok .he and our older brother live out in los angeles .the older brother curtis new stephen had gone to a friends house for thanksgiving and after all day friday of un-replied to text messages he called us friday night .he was worried and with good reason .curtis had called all of the friends he knew stephen was with and go out of it all that stephen had gone to a bar .with different friends then he went to spend thanksgiving with .the friends he went to the bar with said last time he saw stephen was walking up the street to hail a cab to go home .we called everyone .we called the cab company we knew stephen used .we called hospitals and the jails .curtis then went and filed a missing persons report with the LAPD .our poor mom worried out of her mind thinking the worst stayed up most of the night and woke up early today only getting about an hour of sleep .this morning i was woken up getting asked how much i thought stephen weighed .so anyway at about 1:30pm my mom told me to look for flights to LA because if curtis didn't find stephen in his apartment (which he was let in by the land lord) she was fling out there .curtis did pound on the door at the apartment before he filled the missing persons report .but we had no idea if he was in there passed out .so i find a flight one way from houston to LAX and it wasn't cheap .$505 total one way .it got to about 3pm and she had me go ahead and by the ticket and she was packing because curtis found stephen's apartment empty .i bought the ticket and not 20 minutes later did curtis call saying stephen had called his home phone and left a message telling him the address where he was. apparently what happened was when stephen did get a cab he decided not to go home but instead to go to a couple of other friends house and hang out and just relax for his long weekend .his cell phone died and he had no idea everyone was looking for him .luckily continental airlines let us cancel the ticket and refund our money .if i had bought from NWA i'm not so sure would have let me due to the fact they suck major ass .future blog on that so stay tuned?

so this is black friday?

i had never heard of black friday until about three years ago .and when i did i thought it sounded rather ominous .but it turns out that its called black friday due to the fact it puts stores "in the black" for the year .thats a big statement too .just think about how much business a store has to do to be put in the black for an entire year one just one day .that is a whole lot of revenue generated in just one day .and the fact that the items all the people are on sale i think only adds to the amazement of it all .but i know it was a good day for the economy

however it wasn't so good in showing the good in people .every year on this day you hear of at least one death .either caused by someone cutting in line so someone else shoots or stabs them .which makes no sense because if you're in jail for murder .you can't really take advantage of the good deals .the other unfortunate thing that occurs is people in a mad rush to get in the stores stamped and trample unfortunate souls to death .i'm actually unaware how you could be so wanting of something you fail to notice a human being underneath your feet

the yahoos that camp out for days in front of the stores to be the first in line crack me up .especially the ones up north in the sub freezing weather camping out for up to 2 nights just to save $200 .i think there is some seriously idiotic people in this world missing more then a few screws .i'm all for saving a few bucks but two days in a tent rather then spent in my own bed in the comfort of my home .i think i'd spend the extra money

woulda, shoulda, coulda

i'm guilty of it too but i really hate pissers and moaners about times past and opportunities wasted .and i'm sure we all know at least one person who's a chronic moaner .or pisser if you prefer .anyway i really don't get why someone would want to be so focused on something they have no way of changing .all you can do is make note of the past in order to change how you let the future (that you are able to control) play out its easy to say what if this or what if that but at the end it is pointless .i also hate when something happens to me and someone else says "i wish that would have happened to me" and of coarse its easy to say what you would have done when you know how it has already played out .and that brings to mind a great joke

a cop pulls over a speeding cadillac and walks up to the driver and asks him "sir do you know how fast you were going?" and the driver responds "no sir i don't ,i guess it just kinda got away from me" and the officer says "well you were going 75 in 55 ,now i'll let you off with a warning this one time" and just as the driver is feeling relieved the officer takes out his flash light and whacks the guy on the fore head .an instant goose egg raises up and the guy in a really shocked voice exclaims "what the hell was that for?!?" and the officer calmly responds "well if you let this car get away from you again and another officer up the road pulls you over .he'll be able to see that you've already gotten a warning" now the officer walks to the passenger side of the car and asks the passenger to roll his window down and the officer without saying a word whacks him in the head too .and of coarse the passenger yells "why'd you hit me?" and the officer says "well i know yall are going to get a few miles up the road and you're going to look to your friend and say "boy if that cop would have done that to me.........!""

i might do it if you would just ask

i really hate it when i'm told i must do something .well depending on what it is of coarse like if i were told i had to do something i said i was going to do then its not a big deal but when i get told "hey, come help me move this" .that's a little annoying .whats worse is when my dad says "i need you to come help me" and i'll ask "doing what" and if he knows its something pointless he give me the "i need it done. so you'll come help me right?" not asking me but more demanding me .and i have to say just him doing that makes me not want to help him what so ever .now if he were to just ask me (nicely) to go and help him then i'd be more willing to help him

hes not the only one who does that either .just the most constant one .but i really don't understand why someone can pretty much outright demand your help and expect it .i'm all for helping someone in need but i do expect courtesy when you ASK for it .yet still people don't ask .its almost as if they think they're owed .and i really hate those people that have that false sense of self righteousness thinking every one owes them for no reason

screwed yet again by sleep

well i knew when i was brought pop tarts in bed that i was going to watching one of the boys today .i guess my mom bringing me the tarts is her way of making up for it or something .but anyway my youngest nephew was running fever so he couldn't go to the sitter .so as i ate my pop tarts i was trying to figure out how i was going to watch him later that afternoon and cut my dogs hair .which i of coarse dread doing but it has to be done .anyway i finished my pop tarts and soon feel back to sleep only to be woken up multiple times by my father just being noisy .which i have to say really pisses me off because he expects us to "keep it down" while he takes his noon nap yet if i'm still asleep in the morning he has no problem making all the ruckus he can .but i digress .its a little before noon and my dad and nephew come in the living room and have some sort of contraption making all kinds of noise without any disregard for my peace and quiet .then my dad comes in here and tells me hes going to take his precious nap and that i'm to watch the kid .my nephew makes his way in here and he winds up with his pillow and blanket on my bed and lays down as do i and we both fall back to sleep

another thought on procrastination

i was wondering what the past of procrastination is .well from an evolutionary standpoint .and a thought i had whilst cleaning the tub after having bathed my dog .that .perhaps it has to do with waiting for the right moment .either while hunting or possibly during a fight .anyway my thought was that waiting for the right moment to do whatever might have caused us to like the feeling of doing something at the last minute was some sort of a pleasure

please stop crying

if i'm like most men (and i'm pretty sure i am) you have no idea what to say or do when a woman starts crying .if its your girlfriend or wife its worse .well if you care about her its worse .i'm not sure why but i think its against the code of lady like behavior to tell a man why it is they're crying .i would swear its an auto response mechanism that they say "it's nothing i'm fine" .but we know they're not fine .they're the furthest thing from fine .and if you say "oh ok" or anything like that and not try to console them you might as well hang yourself .or at least hang your balls on hook because shes going to let into you .might not be right then .might not be that month .but you're going to get it and you will not win

i'd like to make a plea to all women out there .when you feel like crap for whatever reason .please tell us .don't just say "i'm fine" .i know its yalls way of seeing just how much we care about you by pushing us away and seeing if we come back or let you put the distance between us but that's not healthy .if you love the man you're with be honest with him .tell him when he screws up .or at least his major screw ups cause lets face it .you'd go horse telling us every thing we did wrong .or at least i know my girlfriend would

now i'm sure eventually my girlfriend will read this and i want her to know i'm not typing this about her nor did she or her actions make me want to write this blog .but yes she does do the things i'm talking about .i don't blame her .i know its not something she does consciously and that she does try to be open with me about her feelings .and just for the fact that she does make the effort .makes me only love her more

i don't care why you whispered .but i care that i whispered back

if you’re like me .you like to mess with people .i think its just the simply pleasure i get out of making people scratch their heads

i’ve noticed that when you whisper to someone they will almost always whisper back to you .even if its on the phone .they whisper whatever to you so whisper back even though you don’t need to not being in the same room with them .what i like to do is whisper to someone i’m having a conversation with and when they whisper their response i again talk normally .the other person usually says nothing about the whispering that just occurred .why is that?

i think it’s the herd effect .we as humans mimic other humans so we are not the odd ball out .think about it .i know a lot of people are thinking “i don’t care if i stand out” but the truth is you do care .so you try harder to do so .i’m not knocking you by any means .i’m just saying it’s a deep seated survival instinct .you see other people all running in the same direction .more then likely you’re going to turn and run along with them .again .it’s a survival mechanisms we have honed over the millions of years we have been evolving

i know you do it too

here’s a homework assignment for you .i want you to take note of the first word you say when you call a business .i bet that word is “yes” .why is that though .when someone answers your call and you says something to the effect of “hello this is mark how my i help you?” or “thanks for calling your local family bank how my i direct your call?” that certainly doesn’t sound like a yes or no question to me .yet i know i have said “yes” to those people who answered the phone

one theory (posed by my girlfriend) was that the yes corresponds to you thinking “yes ,this is where I was calling” .but if that’s so why say it out loud .i know i have a busted mind to mouth filter but is it a more serious and wide spread problem then i had perceived .if so it will make for some interesting gatherings

i'll rip your head off

yeah its usually just an expression we say or most likely yell in anger but never something you think you'll actually do .at least not on purpose .i'm sure i've lost you already so i guess i'll explain .yesterday my dad had gone somewhere and when he got back he opened the front door and yelled "hey kids yall wanna see a dove up close" calling to my nephews .and then to me "hey aaron come look at this bird under our mail box" .our mail box is set in front of our window so the bird was on the window seal .as i walked out i turned and looked at it and it was just sitting there .shaking

i'm a caring person by nature and i wanted to help the bird if i could which by the way turns out it was a pigeon not a dove .anyway i came back inside and grabbed my leather gloves and a box to put the pigeon in .went back outside and started to pick up the bird to place him in the box knowing he was hurt just by his sitting there but i wasn't ready for what i saw next (if you have a weak stomach, you might not want to read on)

as i gently tried to pick up the bird and put him in the box i see that he has a half dollar sized hole in his chest area .on the right side in front of his wing .at that point i sent the boys inside .and i knew i had to put the poor thing out of its misery .so i came back inside and asked my girlfriend (that's an animal person) what the most humane way to kill the bird would be .she said to break its neck .so i went back out there and gently grabbed the pigeon's body in one hand and then his head in the palm of the other with his neck in between my fingers and i twisted at least one full revolution and bent down at the same time .now i know birds have very flexible necks but i heard it crack several times .i thought my job was done and so i set the bird down only for it to flex its neck and stand up and run into the corner away from me

i felt so bad knowing i just hurt it rather then putting it out of its misery like i was trying .so .i grabbed the bird once again the same way as before but this time i knew i had to try differently so i not only pinched his neck but i simultaneously pulled trying to separate its vertebra to the point it broke .and it certainly broke .because i accidentally ripped his head right off .blood squirted every from out of his neck as his heart kept pumping all over the door frame, my hands and arms and puddled on the porch .i dropped his head on the porch next to his now lifeless body and pool of blood and i saw him looking at me till his consciousness (if bird have consciousness) left him as his eye slowly closed .i know i did the right thing .but i still feel bad about it

i feel like crap

if you've read some of my blogs you should know i have chronic fatigue syndrome and that i sleep a lot .not only that but i hate that i sleep a lot .yesterday i slept all day .well not all day but i might as well have .i woke up yesterday around 12:30pm .and stayed awake for a little while .but felt sleep calling me back so i gave in and went around 2:30pm and stayed asleep for the rest of the day and then the rest of the night .that's 8 hours of sleep till 12:30pm and then another 18 hours of sleep till i woke up this morning .i hate it .i know when i sleep this much i feel like crap when i finally do get up .i really hate it .and to make it worse people i know still think i fake it .how in the hell would anyone fake 26 hours of almost straight sleep? i don't know anyone who could .but yet people in my own family think i can control it .why the hell would i even want to sleep so much if i was acting? what on earth would i have to gain in life by only sleeping it away? not only that but it kinda hurts to think that the people who love you unconditionally don't believe you have this sleep problem .i don't know .its a pain in the ass having chronic fatigue syndrome is a pain in the ass .its really no wonder i'm on antidepressants only doing enough to keep me from totally breaking down

i wanna see a movie

i really do .the movie i'd like to go see is the newest james bond film .quantum of solace .it looks so bad ass and in my opinion daniel craig brings intensity to the james bond role i think hes been laking .though i do miss the gadgets .they had some in casino royal but not as many of the old movies but i guess its the trade off that has to be paid .anyway i'd like to see the new bond film quantum of solace but i'm not going to go for two reasons .the first one being that i told my girlfriend i wanted to see it with her .and i honestly do .the second reason is that i can't go to a movie theatre all by myself .that's lame .plus am i suppose to ask "who is that guy again?" to the stranger sitting next to me? .yes i have a horrible memory .i really don't know why i don't like watching certain movies by myself but i don't .i'll wait to watch some movies with someone else no matter how badly i want to see the movie .that kinda frustrates me .i told my girlfriend i'd watch that movie pineapple express with her too .that one is really hard not to watch without her its like a borderline movie to me i guess i want to watch it with her yet i would watch it by myself if i hadn't promised her i'd wait to see it with her .but i love james bond movies .and i really would like to see the latest one cause like i said daniel craig is awesome as bond not to mention yet again how i love bond films

space bags

i bought some before my trip to michigan in late september .three to be precise .my intent was to get some that you didn't need the vacuum to void the bag of air .well they and by they i mean academy didn't have any of that kind .i had had that kind before .and it worked great for me when i would go on trips as i like to bring my own pillow and blanket to sleep with .you would put the contents in the bag .seal the top and then roll it up to squeeze out the air .and it worked great .it would allow me to pack more clothes with the saved space from the compacted pillow and blanket .well over time and many many uses of the bag it developed a hole or two and of coarse no longer held the vacuum so i was back to packing a couple less shirts and pairs of pants .but i went to academy hoping to find some more of them to save room in my suitcase .well i didn't find any but i did find some made for sleeping bags .i took one out to see just how big it was and it seemed like it'd easily hold my pillow and blanket .not only that but it was on sale .so i bought it and the only two others there to store bulky blankets and stuff here at my house .well it turned out i didn't use them for my trip to michigan because i wasn't sure if i'd have a vacuum cleaner to use to repack for my return flight .so the three bags sat in their box in the bag from academy .that is until today .last night i decided to wash my thick winter blanket and then i was going to store it in one of these space bags to keep it clean between uses .well it turns out that all three bags do not hold the vacuum they're suppose to .so it should be needless to say but i'm go ahead and say it anyway .i'm pretty pissed off

weather

i really hate it and i'll be happy when we gain control over it .and yes there are plenty of people working on ways to control the weather .but until thin i guess we all have to just deal with it .but boy howdy does it irritate me .i know you all know what i mean too .you want to do something that you've been planing on doing for a while and the day finally comes and it rains .or its to cold or if you wanted to fly a kite the air is as still as a nuns bed .and all we can do is deal

down in the part of texas i'm in the weather is not a constant thing .by that i mean one day we will have our A/C on and the next we have to turn on the heater .it certainly doesn't make it easy on your system waking up in a sweat from having the heater on while over night the weather got hot .yet again .my girlfriend and i are having a long distance relationship which will be a topic of a future blog .but she lives and is from michigan .she came down here to meet me for the first time and we ended up in the emergency room with her having trouble breathing .that was partly due to the heat of the summer as it was june .but we also have very humid summers (humid winters too) so it feels a lot hotter then it actually is .and if those two things weren't enough we have the lovely polluting oil refineries not but 1000 yards away

you want my gun? i'll let you have the bullets first

why do people thing gun control works? if a criminal wants a gun they're going to get one. so why would you want to unarm the law abiding citizens? .i mean if a criminal comes at you with a gun and the government has taken your gun away .what are you suppose to do? roll over? well that's not the amreican way .the american way is to grab life by the balls .if someone hassles you .you don't turn tail .you stand your ground and fight for what you believe in

i don't for the life of me understand why guns are targeted as the evil things .any one with the least amount of intelligence knows a gun by its self is harmless .its the intent which a person uses the gun that posses the possible problem .i don't know what the statistics are but i'm sure way more people would use a gun only in self defense rather then cause harm to another .there are always going to be bad apples .always .which is why i don't believe world peace is an achievable goal .people will always disagree .and a very small majority of them turn to violence . yet we have to be punished?

the stop sign isn't a suggestion

it really aggravates me that people treat stop signs as if they are yield signs .or as if they aren't even there at all .i was taught and i'm sure they were as well that when you come to a stop sign you are suppose to wait a full two seconds before going .now i can see how some people don't want to wait two second .even though its not a long time to wait .but i see people all the time rolling up to a stop sign .slowing down some and then going .i was going across town not to long ago and i can to a a four way stop at the same time as another woman .now by law i had the right of way as i was on the right of her .i came to a complete stop .the woman did not ,only slowing down and then going in front of me .that irritated me .then a few days after that .i was riding with my dad .we stopped at a stop sign and then started to go threw and i looked to my right and there's a truck bumper coming right at me .i don't know if my dad didn't stop fully or the guy in the truck didn't but i was shocked .the man came within feet of hitting us and i'm not to sure he even put on his breaks

this week the baby sitter is on vacation which is and was a topic for another blog but anyway i'm watching my nephews in the afternoon and i go meet the older one at the bus stop at 3 every day .i sit there on the corner waiting on the bus to arrive .its a four way stop .well suppose to be a four way stop but its more like a four way slow down .which is retarded .i mean this it less then a block from a middle school .the kids should be old enough to know not to walk out in front of a car but still .not only is it in an area near the school but when my nephews bus does pull up not a single car is suppose move or pass the buss yet these idiots in a hurry continue on as if the bus wasn't even there

procrastination

why in the hell do we procrastinate? i mean what in the past of our evolution contributes this trait .it certainly doesn't give us an edge for survival .nor does it allow us to spread our seed .procrastination i think is best compared to masturbation .its good in the beginning but in the end you realise you're really just fucking yourself .so then why do we it? why are we compelled to wait till the absolute last minute to complete a task rather then do it and be done?

i think its something we are all guilty of rather or not we will admit it .i often hold off on doing things till i can no long hold off .whether i'm pressured into doing them or told to i better do i better do it now .but i still don't know why .and honestly it pisses me off that i do this .yet i still do it .i still hold off on things thinking i'm enjoying myself yet i'm really just prolonging my misery .there are times i consciously think and then do things as i know they need to be done so that i'll not have to do or worry about doing them later .and i will admit that i like knowing i've nothing but to relax later .so if i know i like the stress less feeling why would i feel like putting something off would be a good idea ?

instant winner

there don't seem to be any products that still have the instant winner under the cap prize give aways any more .sure they say they have instant winner contest and they is stuff printed under the cap but its not "we're sorry you're not an instant winner please try again" or "you've won" instead its always something to the effect of "if you would like to see if you are an instant winner please long on to our website and enter this code HUJMA8778JU" how the hell is that considered an instant prize? .that's just more work and if you ask me a pain in the ass .not only must you go to their website to find out if you have won .but before you can even enter the code to see you have to create an account with them .giving them your name and e-mail so they can do god knows what with

it just really irritates me that that this passes for "instant" i know not much of anything anymore is instant but why take away that feeling of turning over the cap and seeing if you have won a prize or if you're just the loser you've always been .why would they think people want to have to open something .log online .find their website .enter all sorts of irrelevant personal information .all to find out they're a loser? .i think it makes you an even bigger loser then if you would just flip over the top and see you've lost .because this way you have to actually put effort into finding out how unlucky you are

my thinking is if i lost (something i didn't even know i was entered in) .tell me don't make me work to find out .it might sound lazy but i just don't like having to work to find out disappointing news .that would be like paying someone to kick me in the nuts .but if the cap is a winner .the i could totally understand having to log on and enter a code to claim your prize .i guess this is just one of the many prices we pay for making this world the ass backwards place it has become

how can a toy bring out the worst in a kid?

you think i'd be talking about a toy gun or violent video game but i'm not .i'm talking about a simple power wheels 4 wheeler .my two nephews can not seem to share it and go into a tantrum if they are told they can't ride it for any reason .i wish my dad hadn't brought it for them cause i can only see it being more trouble .and of coarse my dad isn't having to deal with it .so when my nephews are suppose to be out in the yard sharing it they do nothing but fight .then one of them ends up crying .and all i get out of it is frustrated .i hate trying to keep the peace .i really do .i wish we could just do like rodney king requested "can't we all just get along?" .its a nice sentiment but i don't think its possible .as long as there is more then one being capable of independent thought peace on earth will never be

but why would two kids like a toy so much they'd risk having it taken away because they can't share it .i told them numerous times that if they didn't share it and share it nicely that neither one of them would get to play with it .and this morning the younger one asked to ride on the four wheeler and i told him it was to early .he then begin to pout and started calling me stupid and the started crying .i really hate that damn four wheeler

no more mr. nice gay

that was the cry of thousands of homosexuals that gathered in los angeles a few days ago .and i don't blame them .after california passed the proposition 8 to ban gay marriage .so they decided to gather and show their feelings .first gathering at the mormon temple in west hollywood and as the crowd grew they began to wander around causing the closures of multiple highway off ramp closures

they picked the mormon temple as the gathering spot because the mormon church apparently contributed somewhere in the neighborhood of 10-15 million dollars to push for the proposition to get passed .and as one lesbians sign read "why can you have 8 wives and i can't even have one?" .not only is it funny .but it raises a valid point .why does the moron, whoops mormon church think that god would be ok with them having multiple wives, many of which are under legal age at the time of marriage .but the marriage of a man to a man or a woman to a woman would cause some sort of downward turn of the moral fabric of society .well i have news for them .pedophilia and bigamy isn't something that screams morality .to me and i think many others it'd scream gross and for the police to be called .yet the marriage of two legal aged consenting adults is now illegal .that i don't understand

if you're wondering why i care about this .its because i have two gay brothers and i believe they should be able to get married .they should have all the same rights as anyone else .being gay isn't a choice .being gay is something you're born .just like being born into a certain race

if you want me to do it you need to shut up about it

why the hell is it when someone asks you to do something they know you don't want to do they end up asking you so damn much you really don't want to do it .my dad claims to have vacuumed the kitchen and den last night and that it took him almost three hours .what in the hell is he smoking .unless you move at a snails pace it wouldn't take you three hours .not even if he mopped the floors and moved all the furniture like he says he did would it take you that long .we don't live in a furniture store .and the floors weren't that dirty

anyway this morning he asks me if i would finish vacuuming the rest of the house .i said yes cause i did tell my mom i'd do it yesterday but i ended up sleeping all day and all night so i didn't .but he asked me to vacuum and since then has asked me 20 times since .my mom woke me up last night to tell me i had a subway sandwich in the refrigerator. i didn't want it then but today at about noon i was getting hungry so i went to see if it was still there .it was and as i grabbed it out of the fridge my dad was walking in the house .he saw me with my sandwich and asks if i wanted to split "the" sandwich with him .it was only a six inch so i said no and then asked him "wasn't it for my supper last night anyway?" and he said "well yeah but you didn't eat it" i guess that in his mind meant i never wanted it? so i told him "i know i didn't eat it last night and i didn't eat breakfast this morning so i'm pretty hungry" and he says "well, i guess if you vacuum you can have it" .what the hell is going on here? .hes going to let me have my own sandwich that was meant for me if i do something i already agreed to do? .i held my tongue and eat my sandwich

.later my mom calls wanting to know the name of the coffee maker we have to buy one for work .so i go in the kitchen and spell the name to here .and when i'm done she asks me if i'm going to vacuum .she of coarse didn't know my dad had told already asked me .so i told her that he had and i said i would .she went on to ask me again if i would vacuum .not only that but asked me to redo some of where my dad had already vacuumed .i guess in three hours he still managed to leave trash .i didn't agree to redo what he had done cause i already have to vacuum the 80% of the house he didn't do last night

at this point i'm pretty pissed off and don't want to do it what so ever .my dad after waking up from his nap comes in my room and asks me who had called .and i told him it was mom .he then says "what'd she want .did she ask you to vacuum" and went on to remind me to vacuum .all i want to do now is beat the crap out of someone or something

if you want me to do something i don't want to do .its best not to ask me 50 more times after i agreed

i think your falling behind in this race

you hear a lot now a days how people are wanting equal standards for different races .i'm all for it .just because you have different color skin doesn't mean you should be treated better or worse then anyone else .Dr. king spoke of that .and rosa parks sat down for that .although i think she was motivated by being tired rather then having change on her mind .but regardless of what her intents were she is now a symbol of the fight for equal rights

i find it rather sad that although all the steps forward we have taken as a people .having the first black president barack obama is a step forward .i don't like the man but not based on his race .i don't like him based on the fact he consorts with people who clearly hate america such as reverend jeremiah wright and the self confessed bomber bill ayers .i don't care what color your skin is .if you hate america or were under guidance from people who hate america .you lost my vote .but anyway barack is the president elect and it is a step forward for equal rights .yet he himself thought the color of his skin would matter .and he's not the only black man that does .i have heard and heard of numerous black people who want equal rights but yet .when or if they feel they're getting a raw deal .which just happens how every one is treated .they claim that their skin color is the issue .i don't understand how that works .if you want equal rights you have to be ready to get treated like crap like every one else .and shut their damn mouth about the color of their skin .cause they happen to be the only ones focused on it

if you have read that and think i'm a racist i don't really give a crap .i know i'm not and i treat people equally what you need to do instead of point fingers and blame others is practice over looking difference and just accept each other for the diverse and great things we each have to offer this world

don't lie

i hate being lied to .i mean i really hate being lied too .it makes more pissed off then just about anything else .because not only does it make whatever you're telling me worse by prolonging the truth .it also lets me know you have absolutely no respect for me .and that pisses me off .especially if i had considered you a friend

now i'm not saying lying isn't something i don't do .cause that would be a lie .but i do hate lying and try hard never to do so .there are times i would say lying is necessary but for the most part .there's no reason to .why lie and make something hard on yourself down the line if you can man up and tell the truth and be done with it .i've tried and am still trying to teach my nephews that lying will only make you get in trouble twice .telling them if they do something wrong and they confess about it .they'll only get punished once .but if they do something wrong and lie about having done it .they'll get in trouble twice .once for whatever they did wrong and again for lying about it

yes there are times when telling the truth is extremely hard .like when you know the truth is going to hurt whom ever it is you have to tell .but i know that if i were to lie to them rather then tell the truth it'd only hurt them worse .having given them the false impression of whatever the lie was .and it lets them know that you (like i said before) don't respect them

i honestly don't get the draw of lying .i do feel the urge to lie from time to time but its just easier to tell the truth and be done with it .lying is just a waste of time .the truth will come out eventually and i don't know about you but i'd rather it come out on my terms

if you take it .put it back

recently i had sand the uncured paint on the new table i'm making .when sanding uncured paint you tend to go threw a lot of sand paper because the paint clogs it up .it was good thing i had some extra i took off the big spool or i wouldn't have had enough to finish sanding .in fact i had just enough to finish .and i would have gotten it sanded faster if i had more but i couldn't find it due to my dad having moved it .he claims he moved it so it wouldn't get damaged from the moister .yet the place in his workshop i got it was under a leak and most of the paper in the draw was already ruined so i don't understand how it being in a cabinet would have done it more damage .but anyway he moved it and went on to tell me two possible places he put it .i looked in both places and didn't find it in either .and what pisses me off more is that i spent 20 minutes looking for it and didn't even find it .if i would have just kept sanding i would have gotten it finished in that 20 minutes .if the damn paper was were it was suppose to be it would have only taken me 5 minutes .it just really pisses me off when things have a place and people use them and then don't return whatever it is to the place its suppose to be

castration of an icon

its been years now since the GM corporation has bought the civilian rights of the hummer from the american motors company .i've hated it since the H2 came out too .the took the balls off of the hummer and turned it into a wounded horse .not only was it made less rugged but also in my opinion ugly .i believe they took away the hummers capabilities as well .the thought of what they have done to the military work horse turns my stomach .i was not to happy to learn about a year ago that my oldest brother had bought one

my brother drove in from california not to long ago to help my sister with her house .it was damaged during hurricane ike .but anyway he came this weekend to see us and i got to ride in his hummer .this being the first time i'd seen the inside of one of the damn things and as much as i hate to say it .it wasn't to bad .it did seem like there was a lot of wasted room in it though and i'm still not convinced on its capabilities off road but at the very least it doesn't make me as sick as it had before .i of coarse wouldn't buy one .if i had the means and need for something of that size i'd go with the original

teaching a kid to ride a bike

this time i'm not the frustrated one .but my youngest nephew is .hes a great kid but recently hes been flipping switches .going from happy to mad as hell in a split second .so trying to teach him to ride a bike is to say the least is interesting .his older brother has managed to learn to ride rather quickly and is doing well .hes a little scared of falling still so hes not wanting to go to fast yet .but i know he'll be tearing it up before to long .but back to his younger brother .i'm running along side him holding the seat to keep him steady .and when we're going at a good speed and i feel him balanced i let go .he rode for probably 20-30 feet doing great then he hiccuped of something and fell .he went from being happy as hell to mad as hell in a split second yelling "why did you let go you stupid aaron?" i laughed which i'm sure he didn't like but oh well .so he finally calmed down and we got him some knee and elbow pads (he already had on his helmet) and we tried it again .i'm running along side him still holding his seat and he steadies himself .so i let go still running along side him ready to grab him if i need to .i told him i had let go which probably wasn't the best thing cause he looked back to see if i was telling the truth and he became unstable and started to fall so i grabbed his seat and handle bars and managed to stop him from falling only to almost make myself fall .but after that he was happy and we turned around and were going to try again .we were doing good and i'm still at his side and i let go and for reasons only known to him he slams on the brakes i run past him and he falls .and of coarse gets mad at me

headache

i'm talking about the literal headache .its a nightmare .i hate how the come out of no where and cripple you from doing what you want .the most common headache i get is the tension headache .the ones that start where your neck and head meet and then grow and make your head feel as if it was going to implode .i can feel them coming on most times and i do what i can to stop them .i dig my finger into the nerve that's the cause of the headache .it gets so tense it feels like its a bone .but its just a tense nerve i'd love to rip out and do away with for good .i'm sure it has some other function but you only notice it when it hurts .which is when you seem to notice lots of things you wouldn't other wise notice

i had a hell of a headache last night .first off i ended up sleeping all day and around 5pm one of my nephews comes in my room and tels me "your dog is loose" .so i get up in a hurry put on some clothes and go out the front door .i see my dad and both nephews down the street and my dog cow 50 feet from them .i got flash backs of sargent getting hit by that truck .so i ran back in the house ,put my shoes on and jogged down the street where my dad and nephews were .cow was much further at that point and getting closer to a much busier road with a higher speed limit .i whistled and he didn't come .then i yelled his name and he started running toward me .as he got closer i told him to stop but instead of stopping he darted by me cause he knew i was pissed .he got to the intersection and i yelled at him to stop and he did so i snatched him up and held him close to me thankful he wasn't hit by a car .i started walking back to my house and i found just laying there a folded up dollar bill .but after all of that my head was pounding and i went back to sleep

i didn't know you were a surgeon

the so called babysitter that watches my nephews every day really aggravates me sometimes .shes a really sweet woman but what she does to aggravate me is she'll tell my mom she can't watch the boys due to whatever excuse she has

my mom is out of town for three days at a conference but before she left she told me "neicy isn't going to be able to watch the boys wendsday" and so i asked "why the hell not?" and she responded "her father in law is having surgery" so then i of coarse had to ask "is she preforming the surgery?" .my mom said she was not .so i really have no idea why the hell she has to be there .its not like they would rush out and ask her advice if they hit a snag while preforming surgery .so why the hell does she think her being there would make a damn bit of difference? .she does that a lot though .telling my mom she can't watch the boys on certain days .during the summer i can understand her not wanting to watch them on a friday so her and her husband can go on a vacation weekend .but saying you can't watch them because your father in law is having to have surgery is ridiculous

the sitter told my mom and dad that her price is 15 dollars per kid a day .that's regardless of how long she watches them .what really gets me is when she watches them for like 2 hours in the morning then needs me to get them for whatever reason and she still gets the full price .i think that's a load of bull .oh yeah .my dad just told me that he saw her earlier this morning and she said she decided not to go to the hospital after all

i will admit shes a great babysitter .when i have to watch the boys all day i,m rather irritated by the end of the day .don't get me wrong i love my nephews as if they were my own kids .but they get so wild its crazy .watching one of them is easy but when i have to watch them both its like they feed off one another

i don't know which was worse

i woke up this morning in an awful way .to a blaring fire alarm and god awful smell .it was kinda scary thinking about it now .when i woke up i hand my hands over my ears .i sure hope i never have a real house fire if that's the way my sleeping mind handled it .but what had happened this morning was the first day we needed the heater .and i'm sure just about every one with central air and heat knows the smell of burning dust .its a head splitting smell .especially if you have allergies

but back to the fire alarm .why the hell was my first instinct to cover my ears .i mean yes our fire alarms are loud as hell .but shouldn't my reaction have been to wake the hell up? seriously .i don't get it .and i hope if there is ever a fire i wake up and are able to get out with my dog and family safely

save the dasies

i'm really pissed off to find out this show may be canceled .it is a great show .great plot and the imagery reminds me of a tim burton film .the first season was cut short do to the writers pissing and moaning about some crap no one but them cared about .and this season is failing to get ratings do to lack of advertising

i don't get the network bosses .they throw millions into a show for production .and fail to tell people about it and then are forced to pull the plug on it because no ones watching .it would make sense for them to set aside a couple hundred thousand more for advertising then they do .or hell put more products in the shows and use that money for advertising .because it doesn't matter how good your product is .if no one knows about it .you won't be able to profit from it .it profit is your intent

no i did not attend any kind of business or marketing school or even seminar .this is just me using my logic .i sure wish logic wasn't in such short supply

back on point .watch the television show pushing daises .i don't think you'll regret having done so .its on ABC wednesday nights at 7pm .if you need to catch up in the series you can go to ABC.com and watch full episodes of the show

halloween vs. football

turns out football won .well at least in this part of the country .i think everyone knows by now that this year halloween falls on a friday .and fridays we have high school football games

last year there was hardly any houses with porch lights on .i think it was because more and more churches and places are putting on trick or treating events for the kids .its sad too if you think about it because they are doing that do to the higher risks of creeps wanting to harm kids .so anyway back to football and halloween .our church is putting on something called "trunk or treat" .members of the church decorate their car trunks and truck beds and park behind the church and kids walk around and and get candy from each car .it was nice for me since i don't care to walk around the neighborhood all night we just walked around a parking lot .it really pisses me off though that pedophiles are ruining what use to be a fun filled holiday .crap i got off subject again .ok i'll try to stay on this time .so since this year halloween is on a friday and so are the high school football games the church decided to have the "trunk or treat" tonight .a week before the actual night

i feel like crap

partly because i didn't drink enough water .and partly because i slept about 14 hours .i really hate when i do it to yet i do it often .it is the weekend and i tend to sleep longer on the weekends during the day then i do during the week days .not to sure why i do that either but again when i do i feel like crap

water is crazy .if you don't drink enough you feel like crap .well if i don't i do .but we all need to drink water .our body is suppose to be like 70% water .so i guess it does make sense you have to drink a lot of water to stay feeling good and functioning .i remember several years ago i got sick vomiting uncontrollable .not able to keep water down .so i go to the point of dehydration that i had to be hospitalized .that was not at all a fun day .when i finally got to a room the nurses wanted to draw blood .so they went poking around my arm with a needle and finally hit a vein and told me my blood was like thick motor oil .just because i couldn't drink any water .anyway .several days in the hospital on a saline iv i was good to go

why so glum chum?

its a heck of a thing to be lonely .but what is being lonely .it just a feeling .an emotion .and you don't even have to be alone to be lonely .i would bet there are hundreds if not thousands of people in you're tiny town are sitting home .lonely as could be

why do people need other people around us to feel good .we don't even have to have the person/persons talk to use for us to feel like we aren't alone .i know most times i feel i don't want to be alone .but i'd like to be left alone .i'm not a huge fan of people or crowds .but i still have the want to be around someone .i know animals get lonely too .i guess its a survival mechanism that's been breed into us with evolution .those few that didn't get lonely never sought out a mate so their genes didn't get passed on .so i guess its good to feel alone sometimes .but i know its not fun to feel alone when you re feeling it

the further i chase sleep .the more awaken i become

while trying to sleep several years ago i thought of that phrase .and it rings true doesn't it? even though i have chronic fatigue syndrome (cfs) i'll be drop dead tired yet when i lay down i can't fall asleep .i'm sure there's a scientific name for it but i just think its crap .i know i'm not the only person who has this happen to them .i know that with the 6 billion people on this earth being unique is becoming harder .but that's a topic for a different blog .but for now .back to my topic of gripe .why would our body tell us tell us we are tired and our mind not allow us the rest?

working out

i know i need to work out .and i feel better after i have worked out .but for some reason i absolutely hate doing it .i don't get why either .i mean if i feel better after working out not only physically and mentally why wouldn't i want to work out more often .or at least not procrastinate about doing it

about 4 years ago i bought a bowflex home gym .and i love it .it does work as the infomercials say .i paid about $2,000 for it .used it for about two years straight .then it was like a switch was flicked in my and i no longer wanted to use it .i felt great about myself while i was using it .my confidence was higher and self image even had more energy .i had gone from a scrawny little weakling of bean pole to a fatty .and then using my bowflex i went from a fatty from lack of exercise to pretty darn muscular guy .i didn't loose weight though .rather gained it .but i was happy having gained it because it was all muscle that i had gained .i went from 200 pounds of flab to 210 pounds of muscle .and i liked having the muscles and feeling of strength

not having worked out for about two years now i've lost a lot of muscle .my bi ceps went from 15 inches to 13 and my chest from 42 to 40 .from a large A cup of muscle to a large small A cup of fat .and all of that still doesn't lite the fire or put the boot to my ass to get me to start working out like i use to

cure damn you

i bought some paint for a table i made yet the paint isn't curing .i've called the company that makes it and they've tried to be helpful .even shipping me a replacement can of paint in hopes it will cure .the new paint has yet to arrive so i can only wait

it really makes me mad that .i painted part of my table and had to sand it off cause it never dried .and that was a huge pain in my ass .having to use a lot of sand paper cause the unhardened paint was gumming it up and rendering useless .stupidly of me i thought i had just done something wrong while painting .like maybe the cold paint in the can having come out of the house and going into the warmth outside might have had something to do with it .so i repainted the part of the table i had to remove the paint from .only to have it not harden and causing me more pain in the ass sanding of semi wet paint

.i'm really frustrated .though i got wise and am only painting test pieces but the paint on them is failing to cure too .just earlier i decided to paint two more test pieces but only put on one coat to see if that made any difference .so i guess i'll have to just wait and see

why are you in such a hurry

well first off i want to say i slept late this morning .and woke up slightly after noon .my dad came in and said "don't you have a doctor's appointment" .i of coarse did and had forgotten .it was scheduled for 1:30 and it was already 1:00 .so i called the doctor's office and told them i was running late and they told me that the doctor was still seeing morning patients .which was my first frustrating happening of the day .so i was taking my time in getting there .i never understood why doctors bother making schedules when they don't bother to keep them .i did end up getting there late and there was a couple that was already waiting .my appointment was of coarse as i said for 1:30 and i heard them say theirs was for 1:45 .then of coarse at 2:15 i was called ahead of them .i know they had to be sitting there thinking "why is this guy going before us when he got here after us?" .and i of coarse felt bad because i had been in their place many times

but on the way there it seemed like every one was in a hurry .people speeding past me going at least 80 .then as i got further on the highway i was in the left hand lane passing a group of cars going slower then the legal limit and this woman flies up behind me and starts riding my bumper .i not wanting to be rear ended turned my headlights on and it of coarse puts my lights in the back on .my hope was that shed back off some .but no .she stayed right on me .it was insane .i don't see how there could have been more then five feet between us .when the right lane was free of cars and i was about to get over i put my blinker on and braked hard several times .yet the crazed woman didn't back off any .i honestly don't think she was paying any attention .as she passed me i looked at her and she didn't appear to be on a cell phone so i have no idea what her deal was

i wish i could say that was the end of everything but it wasn't .the way i was headed the road forks off two lanes to the left and two lanes to the right .the lanes going off to the right narrow down to one lane .the right lane .and there is ample signage telling you to merge right well ahead of when you need to .yet of coarse you always have those drives who think they can go up there then cut over .there was this white car in the left lane next to the truck that was in front of me .i always try to leave plenty of room between myself and the car ahead of me so there were several car lengths .i knew the driver of the white car was going to try to cut in front of me .so i sped up enough to leave no room for the drive to do so .the car slowed down cause i guess she saw there was no room for her to get over in front of the truck thinking i'd let it in .but i held my ground not letting any room for the car to get over .at this point we were where the lane was down to one and the white car was having to drive on the shoulder still thinking i'd let it over but i didn't .the car started coming over anyway and i held my horn down letting it know i'm here and not planning on moving .finally they go the point i wasn't going to let it over and stopped till i passed and weaseled its way in behind me .but as i passed i looked over and saw it was another woman .she had a look on her face as if i was the biggest ass .and i just want to say i'm not trying to make the point women can't drive .because i know plenty men who are bad drivers .it was just happenstance that both drivers turned out to be women

36 hours of straight sleep can't be good

well today i finally wake up from 36 hrs of sleep .i guess i needed it and i feel ok .we got home from austin at about 7pm and we unloaded the van .i only dropped my bags at my doorway (and i still need to unpack) .but after that i got in bed and fell asleep .it wasn't to hard .i didn't get much sleep saturday ,sunday or monday nights .and did do a lot during those days .still 36 hours of sleep .i would get up to pee ,drink something ,then back to sleep .i guess its from me having cfs .but i really don't know .i mean normal people don't sleep that long when then go a couple days lacking in sleep do they?

all i know is that i hate it .i have a lot i want to do and stuff i need to do .like unpack for one .but i need to finish my table i'm building .i need to fill out this survey for a discussion group i'm to be in on monday .i have to take pictures for this survey too and get them developed .they included $10 dollars for it so that's pretty cool .i'm interested to see what its going to be about exactly .they said something like wrangler jeans when they called looking for people
that was off subject, i know .but 36 hours of sleep? .i hope i'm able to sleep tonight

12 isn't enough?

i really hate sleeping as much as i do .the other night i went to sleep at 1am which is early for me .but i was exhausted so i had to call it a night .i woke up about noon the next day still tired and was able to stumble to the bathroom to pee .and then stumble back to my room and fall back into my bed .where i laid drifting in and out of sleep for the next hour or so

i finally got up and did my normal thing .which is pee again .brush my teeth .get dressed and walk my dog i laid in bed a little longer after that talking to friends online and watching TV .then i went up stairs and worked out on my bow flex and ab lounge .then i came back downstairs and was waiting to get my nephews at 5:00 and then when 5 finally rolled around and i got the boys .i was sitting in the recliner in the den watching them play in the back yard while also watching cash cab on the discovery channel .i don't know how many time i almost feel asleep but i know it was more then once

a worthless green back

they print dead people on paper .and that makes it worth something? .it use to be backed by gold .the entire sum of U.S. currency use to be held in fort knox in gold bars .we would use paper money as substitute .as caring around gold isn't to fun or easy .but now the government has withdrew the once proudly held fact of our paper money being backed by gold .and is now going by the being backed on the trust of the government

money isn't worth any more then the paper it's printed on .curious how much it cost to make a single one dollar bill? .4 cents .what do you think it cost to make a single hundred dollar bill? .4 cents

sleep sucks

i know most every one doesn't get enough sleep .what happens if your on the other end of that spectrum though .i'll tell you .it sucks just as much .i have something called chronic fatigue syndrome .cfs for short .it causes me to get tired more easily then any normal person .whats worse then having it .is half of the doctors don't even believe it exists .i have brothers that give me a hard time telling me things like "you're just faking it" and "you didn't do anything how can you be tired" .that's just it though .with cfs you don't have to do anything to be tired .i'll tell you i'm certainly not faking .why would i want to sleep then go weld or something else i like to do?

bathroom frustration

i don't know if its me or the toilets but we just don't seem to get along .every toilet i've sat on .i've conquered .i guess its the toilet then .i've even conquered a toto toilet .and those are suppose to be one of the best brand toilets on the market .yet i managed to clog it

the worst feeling of fright i've had is clogging a toilet in someone else's home .its frighting to say the least .if you've never had the feeling consider yourself lucky .when i'm here at my house i know my toilet .if i clog it it usually clears on its own with a little time and several flushes .but when at a new toilet i never know how long it might take for the water to finally go down .and not everyone has the courtesy to have a plunger in their bathroom .and i mean a regular old style plunger .not one of those multi chambered things that don't do anything but splash water all over the place .anyway it is a scary feeling to clog a toilet in someone else's home .the first thing you do is of coarse look in every place for a plunger .if there is one .you don't really care what type it is at the time .the second thing you do is watch to see if the toilet is totally clogged it just backed up a little .cause if the water is going down you're in pretty ok shape .it means you can flush more then the one time .if it doesn't go down .you better hope there's a plunger cause if there's not you might be out of luck

japan china and who ever else makes them

i hate you .i hate you for all the noisy toys that you keep coming out with .why would you make a toy that drives a person to the edge of sanity? .sure kids might like them but the adults around have to deal with hearing them and are the ones in charge of buying since kids don't have money

i live with two of my nephews .one if 4 the other 5 .and they insist on wanting the noisiest toys .and somehow get them .the one in particular i'm bitching about today it a little toy pager that came in a doctor set .it emits a very high pitched ear splitting beeps .it sounds nothing like a real pager and just give me a headache

.the younger boy today was wearing it and holding the button down to make it beep .while running around as if it was his siren .i asked him to stop using the pager but to no avail .he continued to unknowingly test my patience for a little while longer then i demanded he stop and he thankfully did

media miss

i know why the media doesn't follow pertinent news stories .the reason is ratings .but what frustrates me is that they exploit till the next big story comes along and then exploit that till the next .and so on and so forth

the current one being exploited is the disappearance of that little girl caylee anthony down in florida .its really sad and compounding that tragedy is the fact the mother is covering up the truth

and what ever happened to natalee holloway

tits are for sell

i didn't know it either .and no i'm not talking about fake ones .i'm talking about actresses in movies showing flesh for cash .one instance i know of is halle berry in swordfish .she was paid 500k to expose her tits for about 3-5 seconds .that's insane .i wish i had her awesome tits .i'd go topless for one day and be a millionaire .i'm sure that's not the only time an actress has been paid just to flash .i think halle berry was just more out right about it

the other think i don't understand is how nudity can be integral to a plot .if there's a woman in a shower well yes shes going to be naked .but there's no reason plot wise any of her fun zones have to be show .don't get me wrong .i'm all for naked chicks in movies .its sometimes the only reason to watch certain movies

the end

medicated america

i'm sure its nothing new to you that americans are medicated for everything .well most of the civilized world is medicated .it really sucks .i take alot of medication .all prescribed to me of coarse .and right now i'm trying to ween off one of them .i've gotten down from 90mg a day to 30mg a day .yet every time i try to stop it completely i start feeling ill .nausea .dizziness .headache .its absolutely awful