isn't it an oxymoron

i hate waiting .absolutely hate it .and i'm having to wait right now for the 16th which is when my girlfriend is flying in from the holidays .its only twp weeks which doesn't seem like that long of a time but when you count down the days it drags on for a seeming eternity .i miss her intolerably and there's nothing i can do to speed time up .all i can do is wait .well i guess i can try to keep busy to keep my mind else where .but it drifts back to the clock and calender .it can't help but drift there because i know its only a matter of time before my girlfriend is here with me again

i really don't get how i can procrastinate yet still be horribly impatient .i don't think those to qualities should be able to exist in one person but i'm sure i'm not the only one to posses them .seriously how can i hate to wait but knowingly put off doing things .i mean really .why the hell wouldn't i do something since i have control over it .since having to wait on the things i don't have control over drives me insane .shouldn't i explode or implode or some sort of plode having both these qualities?