headache

i'm talking about the literal headache .its a nightmare .i hate how the come out of no where and cripple you from doing what you want .the most common headache i get is the tension headache .the ones that start where your neck and head meet and then grow and make your head feel as if it was going to implode .i can feel them coming on most times and i do what i can to stop them .i dig my finger into the nerve that's the cause of the headache .it gets so tense it feels like its a bone .but its just a tense nerve i'd love to rip out and do away with for good .i'm sure it has some other function but you only notice it when it hurts .which is when you seem to notice lots of things you wouldn't other wise notice

i had a hell of a headache last night .first off i ended up sleeping all day and around 5pm one of my nephews comes in my room and tels me "your dog is loose" .so i get up in a hurry put on some clothes and go out the front door .i see my dad and both nephews down the street and my dog cow 50 feet from them .i got flash backs of sargent getting hit by that truck .so i ran back in the house ,put my shoes on and jogged down the street where my dad and nephews were .cow was much further at that point and getting closer to a much busier road with a higher speed limit .i whistled and he didn't come .then i yelled his name and he started running toward me .as he got closer i told him to stop but instead of stopping he darted by me cause he knew i was pissed .he got to the intersection and i yelled at him to stop and he did so i snatched him up and held him close to me thankful he wasn't hit by a car .i started walking back to my house and i found just laying there a folded up dollar bill .but after all of that my head was pounding and i went back to sleep

i didn't know you were a surgeon

the so called babysitter that watches my nephews every day really aggravates me sometimes .shes a really sweet woman but what she does to aggravate me is she'll tell my mom she can't watch the boys due to whatever excuse she has

my mom is out of town for three days at a conference but before she left she told me "neicy isn't going to be able to watch the boys wendsday" and so i asked "why the hell not?" and she responded "her father in law is having surgery" so then i of coarse had to ask "is she preforming the surgery?" .my mom said she was not .so i really have no idea why the hell she has to be there .its not like they would rush out and ask her advice if they hit a snag while preforming surgery .so why the hell does she think her being there would make a damn bit of difference? .she does that a lot though .telling my mom she can't watch the boys on certain days .during the summer i can understand her not wanting to watch them on a friday so her and her husband can go on a vacation weekend .but saying you can't watch them because your father in law is having to have surgery is ridiculous

the sitter told my mom and dad that her price is 15 dollars per kid a day .that's regardless of how long she watches them .what really gets me is when she watches them for like 2 hours in the morning then needs me to get them for whatever reason and she still gets the full price .i think that's a load of bull .oh yeah .my dad just told me that he saw her earlier this morning and she said she decided not to go to the hospital after all

i will admit shes a great babysitter .when i have to watch the boys all day i,m rather irritated by the end of the day .don't get me wrong i love my nephews as if they were my own kids .but they get so wild its crazy .watching one of them is easy but when i have to watch them both its like they feed off one another

i don't know which was worse

i woke up this morning in an awful way .to a blaring fire alarm and god awful smell .it was kinda scary thinking about it now .when i woke up i hand my hands over my ears .i sure hope i never have a real house fire if that's the way my sleeping mind handled it .but what had happened this morning was the first day we needed the heater .and i'm sure just about every one with central air and heat knows the smell of burning dust .its a head splitting smell .especially if you have allergies

but back to the fire alarm .why the hell was my first instinct to cover my ears .i mean yes our fire alarms are loud as hell .but shouldn't my reaction have been to wake the hell up? seriously .i don't get it .and i hope if there is ever a fire i wake up and are able to get out with my dog and family safely

save the dasies

i'm really pissed off to find out this show may be canceled .it is a great show .great plot and the imagery reminds me of a tim burton film .the first season was cut short do to the writers pissing and moaning about some crap no one but them cared about .and this season is failing to get ratings do to lack of advertising

i don't get the network bosses .they throw millions into a show for production .and fail to tell people about it and then are forced to pull the plug on it because no ones watching .it would make sense for them to set aside a couple hundred thousand more for advertising then they do .or hell put more products in the shows and use that money for advertising .because it doesn't matter how good your product is .if no one knows about it .you won't be able to profit from it .it profit is your intent

no i did not attend any kind of business or marketing school or even seminar .this is just me using my logic .i sure wish logic wasn't in such short supply

back on point .watch the television show pushing daises .i don't think you'll regret having done so .its on ABC wednesday nights at 7pm .if you need to catch up in the series you can go to ABC.com and watch full episodes of the show

halloween vs. football

turns out football won .well at least in this part of the country .i think everyone knows by now that this year halloween falls on a friday .and fridays we have high school football games

last year there was hardly any houses with porch lights on .i think it was because more and more churches and places are putting on trick or treating events for the kids .its sad too if you think about it because they are doing that do to the higher risks of creeps wanting to harm kids .so anyway back to football and halloween .our church is putting on something called "trunk or treat" .members of the church decorate their car trunks and truck beds and park behind the church and kids walk around and and get candy from each car .it was nice for me since i don't care to walk around the neighborhood all night we just walked around a parking lot .it really pisses me off though that pedophiles are ruining what use to be a fun filled holiday .crap i got off subject again .ok i'll try to stay on this time .so since this year halloween is on a friday and so are the high school football games the church decided to have the "trunk or treat" tonight .a week before the actual night

i feel like crap

partly because i didn't drink enough water .and partly because i slept about 14 hours .i really hate when i do it to yet i do it often .it is the weekend and i tend to sleep longer on the weekends during the day then i do during the week days .not to sure why i do that either but again when i do i feel like crap

water is crazy .if you don't drink enough you feel like crap .well if i don't i do .but we all need to drink water .our body is suppose to be like 70% water .so i guess it does make sense you have to drink a lot of water to stay feeling good and functioning .i remember several years ago i got sick vomiting uncontrollable .not able to keep water down .so i go to the point of dehydration that i had to be hospitalized .that was not at all a fun day .when i finally got to a room the nurses wanted to draw blood .so they went poking around my arm with a needle and finally hit a vein and told me my blood was like thick motor oil .just because i couldn't drink any water .anyway .several days in the hospital on a saline iv i was good to go

why so glum chum?

its a heck of a thing to be lonely .but what is being lonely .it just a feeling .an emotion .and you don't even have to be alone to be lonely .i would bet there are hundreds if not thousands of people in you're tiny town are sitting home .lonely as could be

why do people need other people around us to feel good .we don't even have to have the person/persons talk to use for us to feel like we aren't alone .i know most times i feel i don't want to be alone .but i'd like to be left alone .i'm not a huge fan of people or crowds .but i still have the want to be around someone .i know animals get lonely too .i guess its a survival mechanism that's been breed into us with evolution .those few that didn't get lonely never sought out a mate so their genes didn't get passed on .so i guess its good to feel alone sometimes .but i know its not fun to feel alone when you re feeling it

the further i chase sleep .the more awaken i become

while trying to sleep several years ago i thought of that phrase .and it rings true doesn't it? even though i have chronic fatigue syndrome (cfs) i'll be drop dead tired yet when i lay down i can't fall asleep .i'm sure there's a scientific name for it but i just think its crap .i know i'm not the only person who has this happen to them .i know that with the 6 billion people on this earth being unique is becoming harder .but that's a topic for a different blog .but for now .back to my topic of gripe .why would our body tell us tell us we are tired and our mind not allow us the rest?

working out

i know i need to work out .and i feel better after i have worked out .but for some reason i absolutely hate doing it .i don't get why either .i mean if i feel better after working out not only physically and mentally why wouldn't i want to work out more often .or at least not procrastinate about doing it

about 4 years ago i bought a bowflex home gym .and i love it .it does work as the infomercials say .i paid about $2,000 for it .used it for about two years straight .then it was like a switch was flicked in my and i no longer wanted to use it .i felt great about myself while i was using it .my confidence was higher and self image even had more energy .i had gone from a scrawny little weakling of bean pole to a fatty .and then using my bowflex i went from a fatty from lack of exercise to pretty darn muscular guy .i didn't loose weight though .rather gained it .but i was happy having gained it because it was all muscle that i had gained .i went from 200 pounds of flab to 210 pounds of muscle .and i liked having the muscles and feeling of strength

not having worked out for about two years now i've lost a lot of muscle .my bi ceps went from 15 inches to 13 and my chest from 42 to 40 .from a large A cup of muscle to a large small A cup of fat .and all of that still doesn't lite the fire or put the boot to my ass to get me to start working out like i use to

cure damn you

i bought some paint for a table i made yet the paint isn't curing .i've called the company that makes it and they've tried to be helpful .even shipping me a replacement can of paint in hopes it will cure .the new paint has yet to arrive so i can only wait

it really makes me mad that .i painted part of my table and had to sand it off cause it never dried .and that was a huge pain in my ass .having to use a lot of sand paper cause the unhardened paint was gumming it up and rendering useless .stupidly of me i thought i had just done something wrong while painting .like maybe the cold paint in the can having come out of the house and going into the warmth outside might have had something to do with it .so i repainted the part of the table i had to remove the paint from .only to have it not harden and causing me more pain in the ass sanding of semi wet paint

.i'm really frustrated .though i got wise and am only painting test pieces but the paint on them is failing to cure too .just earlier i decided to paint two more test pieces but only put on one coat to see if that made any difference .so i guess i'll have to just wait and see

why are you in such a hurry

well first off i want to say i slept late this morning .and woke up slightly after noon .my dad came in and said "don't you have a doctor's appointment" .i of coarse did and had forgotten .it was scheduled for 1:30 and it was already 1:00 .so i called the doctor's office and told them i was running late and they told me that the doctor was still seeing morning patients .which was my first frustrating happening of the day .so i was taking my time in getting there .i never understood why doctors bother making schedules when they don't bother to keep them .i did end up getting there late and there was a couple that was already waiting .my appointment was of coarse as i said for 1:30 and i heard them say theirs was for 1:45 .then of coarse at 2:15 i was called ahead of them .i know they had to be sitting there thinking "why is this guy going before us when he got here after us?" .and i of coarse felt bad because i had been in their place many times

but on the way there it seemed like every one was in a hurry .people speeding past me going at least 80 .then as i got further on the highway i was in the left hand lane passing a group of cars going slower then the legal limit and this woman flies up behind me and starts riding my bumper .i not wanting to be rear ended turned my headlights on and it of coarse puts my lights in the back on .my hope was that shed back off some .but no .she stayed right on me .it was insane .i don't see how there could have been more then five feet between us .when the right lane was free of cars and i was about to get over i put my blinker on and braked hard several times .yet the crazed woman didn't back off any .i honestly don't think she was paying any attention .as she passed me i looked at her and she didn't appear to be on a cell phone so i have no idea what her deal was

i wish i could say that was the end of everything but it wasn't .the way i was headed the road forks off two lanes to the left and two lanes to the right .the lanes going off to the right narrow down to one lane .the right lane .and there is ample signage telling you to merge right well ahead of when you need to .yet of coarse you always have those drives who think they can go up there then cut over .there was this white car in the left lane next to the truck that was in front of me .i always try to leave plenty of room between myself and the car ahead of me so there were several car lengths .i knew the driver of the white car was going to try to cut in front of me .so i sped up enough to leave no room for the drive to do so .the car slowed down cause i guess she saw there was no room for her to get over in front of the truck thinking i'd let it in .but i held my ground not letting any room for the car to get over .at this point we were where the lane was down to one and the white car was having to drive on the shoulder still thinking i'd let it over but i didn't .the car started coming over anyway and i held my horn down letting it know i'm here and not planning on moving .finally they go the point i wasn't going to let it over and stopped till i passed and weaseled its way in behind me .but as i passed i looked over and saw it was another woman .she had a look on her face as if i was the biggest ass .and i just want to say i'm not trying to make the point women can't drive .because i know plenty men who are bad drivers .it was just happenstance that both drivers turned out to be women

36 hours of straight sleep can't be good

well today i finally wake up from 36 hrs of sleep .i guess i needed it and i feel ok .we got home from austin at about 7pm and we unloaded the van .i only dropped my bags at my doorway (and i still need to unpack) .but after that i got in bed and fell asleep .it wasn't to hard .i didn't get much sleep saturday ,sunday or monday nights .and did do a lot during those days .still 36 hours of sleep .i would get up to pee ,drink something ,then back to sleep .i guess its from me having cfs .but i really don't know .i mean normal people don't sleep that long when then go a couple days lacking in sleep do they?

all i know is that i hate it .i have a lot i want to do and stuff i need to do .like unpack for one .but i need to finish my table i'm building .i need to fill out this survey for a discussion group i'm to be in on monday .i have to take pictures for this survey too and get them developed .they included $10 dollars for it so that's pretty cool .i'm interested to see what its going to be about exactly .they said something like wrangler jeans when they called looking for people
that was off subject, i know .but 36 hours of sleep? .i hope i'm able to sleep tonight

12 isn't enough?

i really hate sleeping as much as i do .the other night i went to sleep at 1am which is early for me .but i was exhausted so i had to call it a night .i woke up about noon the next day still tired and was able to stumble to the bathroom to pee .and then stumble back to my room and fall back into my bed .where i laid drifting in and out of sleep for the next hour or so

i finally got up and did my normal thing .which is pee again .brush my teeth .get dressed and walk my dog i laid in bed a little longer after that talking to friends online and watching TV .then i went up stairs and worked out on my bow flex and ab lounge .then i came back downstairs and was waiting to get my nephews at 5:00 and then when 5 finally rolled around and i got the boys .i was sitting in the recliner in the den watching them play in the back yard while also watching cash cab on the discovery channel .i don't know how many time i almost feel asleep but i know it was more then once

a worthless green back

they print dead people on paper .and that makes it worth something? .it use to be backed by gold .the entire sum of U.S. currency use to be held in fort knox in gold bars .we would use paper money as substitute .as caring around gold isn't to fun or easy .but now the government has withdrew the once proudly held fact of our paper money being backed by gold .and is now going by the being backed on the trust of the government

money isn't worth any more then the paper it's printed on .curious how much it cost to make a single one dollar bill? .4 cents .what do you think it cost to make a single hundred dollar bill? .4 cents

sleep sucks

i know most every one doesn't get enough sleep .what happens if your on the other end of that spectrum though .i'll tell you .it sucks just as much .i have something called chronic fatigue syndrome .cfs for short .it causes me to get tired more easily then any normal person .whats worse then having it .is half of the doctors don't even believe it exists .i have brothers that give me a hard time telling me things like "you're just faking it" and "you didn't do anything how can you be tired" .that's just it though .with cfs you don't have to do anything to be tired .i'll tell you i'm certainly not faking .why would i want to sleep then go weld or something else i like to do?

bathroom frustration

i don't know if its me or the toilets but we just don't seem to get along .every toilet i've sat on .i've conquered .i guess its the toilet then .i've even conquered a toto toilet .and those are suppose to be one of the best brand toilets on the market .yet i managed to clog it

the worst feeling of fright i've had is clogging a toilet in someone else's home .its frighting to say the least .if you've never had the feeling consider yourself lucky .when i'm here at my house i know my toilet .if i clog it it usually clears on its own with a little time and several flushes .but when at a new toilet i never know how long it might take for the water to finally go down .and not everyone has the courtesy to have a plunger in their bathroom .and i mean a regular old style plunger .not one of those multi chambered things that don't do anything but splash water all over the place .anyway it is a scary feeling to clog a toilet in someone else's home .the first thing you do is of coarse look in every place for a plunger .if there is one .you don't really care what type it is at the time .the second thing you do is watch to see if the toilet is totally clogged it just backed up a little .cause if the water is going down you're in pretty ok shape .it means you can flush more then the one time .if it doesn't go down .you better hope there's a plunger cause if there's not you might be out of luck

japan china and who ever else makes them

i hate you .i hate you for all the noisy toys that you keep coming out with .why would you make a toy that drives a person to the edge of sanity? .sure kids might like them but the adults around have to deal with hearing them and are the ones in charge of buying since kids don't have money

i live with two of my nephews .one if 4 the other 5 .and they insist on wanting the noisiest toys .and somehow get them .the one in particular i'm bitching about today it a little toy pager that came in a doctor set .it emits a very high pitched ear splitting beeps .it sounds nothing like a real pager and just give me a headache

.the younger boy today was wearing it and holding the button down to make it beep .while running around as if it was his siren .i asked him to stop using the pager but to no avail .he continued to unknowingly test my patience for a little while longer then i demanded he stop and he thankfully did

media miss

i know why the media doesn't follow pertinent news stories .the reason is ratings .but what frustrates me is that they exploit till the next big story comes along and then exploit that till the next .and so on and so forth

the current one being exploited is the disappearance of that little girl caylee anthony down in florida .its really sad and compounding that tragedy is the fact the mother is covering up the truth

and what ever happened to natalee holloway

tits are for sell

i didn't know it either .and no i'm not talking about fake ones .i'm talking about actresses in movies showing flesh for cash .one instance i know of is halle berry in swordfish .she was paid 500k to expose her tits for about 3-5 seconds .that's insane .i wish i had her awesome tits .i'd go topless for one day and be a millionaire .i'm sure that's not the only time an actress has been paid just to flash .i think halle berry was just more out right about it

the other think i don't understand is how nudity can be integral to a plot .if there's a woman in a shower well yes shes going to be naked .but there's no reason plot wise any of her fun zones have to be show .don't get me wrong .i'm all for naked chicks in movies .its sometimes the only reason to watch certain movies

the end

medicated america

i'm sure its nothing new to you that americans are medicated for everything .well most of the civilized world is medicated .it really sucks .i take alot of medication .all prescribed to me of coarse .and right now i'm trying to ween off one of them .i've gotten down from 90mg a day to 30mg a day .yet every time i try to stop it completely i start feeling ill .nausea .dizziness .headache .its absolutely awful

poop .wait .wait .wait .splash

as i’m sure you’ve read .i had staying at my grandma’s house in central louisiana .my grandma has passed away .i believe it was about two and a half years ago now .she lived an amazing and long life .she died about 2-3 months after we celebrated her 100th birthday .there are still many things here in her house to remind us of her .many things just by seeing and some you have to .put up with i guess is a way to say it for lacking a better way

she lived here in her house till she was around 97 .not only that but she lived alone for the last 20+ years .she had fallen and broken her hip .had it replaced .fell a year or two later and broke the other one .yet she still lived here alone .my uncle who live close by would stop in every day and check on her .he also put up rails and stuff to make it easier on her .one thing he did which is still something that anyone who stays here has to “put up with” (for lack of a better phrase) is the toilet raiser .um .i have no idea what you’d call it (other then a toilet riser) but you bolt it to the toilet using the mounting points the seat uses .then bolt the toilet seat to the top of it .it’s a hollow piece of plastic that raises the height of where you sit about 5 inches .but there are flaws with this one

for one .the toilet bowl is round .and the toilet riser is shaped like most toilets coming to a rounded point at the front .so if you sit on it (and are a man) to .relieve your bowels yet have to pee .you better aim straight down .because if you hit the front of that riser the pee will go down it .and then down the outside of the toilet .and of coarse then all over the floor and your feet .and yes that’s experience talking

and the other thing is that when you do relieve your bowels .the “relieved matter” has a nice fall to build up speed .might sound fine till it hits and turns the toilet into a bidet .making your sphincter snap shut faster then a jew’s wallet will the bill comes at a restaurant .yes that was a bit raciest but you laughed so you’re going to hell with me

where is that sound coming from?

we were on our way back home from louisiana and clear channel radio station was doing a simulcast on several of there stations in the hurricane ike effected areas .they were having people call in with information such as where you could find ice and food and things like that .and one of the callers told about how verizon wireless was giving customers in the area the month for free .and some woman called in saying how she had a share plan and only was going to get the main line for free .she was going on and on about it and my mom started yelling at the radio .i’m not sure if she was actually yelling at the woman or yelling for my benefit ,which was lacking

anyway it reminded me of the time my girlfriend and i were driving back from getting a movie and listening to the radio .it was interrupted by a public service announcement .something about a mentally unstable woman driving in a ford explorer and being dangerous .i don’t recall the details of that but i recall both myself and my girlfriend leaned in closer to the radio when the announcement came on .after it was over and a minute or so had passed i realized .rather then trying to get to the speaker where the sound was coming .we both tried to hear it from the radio

nice at a price

you should know by this point in your life that every thing has a price .in this case i’m talking about something as simple as being courteous to a fellow person .i’m sitting at the airport right now while typing this and while going threw the security screening this woman came up pushing a stroller with her daughter in it and was asking every one if she could pass in front of in line stating “i’m going to be late .my plane takes off in 10 minutes may i go in front of you”

well i had gotten here 3 hours before my flight is to leave so i don’t give any mind and allowed her in front of me .as did many others behind me .she asked the man a couple people up and he responded “i’m on the same plane lady ,you have to wait like everyone else” i agreed (though i was to nice to say) but said nothing and kinda chuckled to myself .as the woman was obviously offended by the mans statement .and if her face didn’t say enough she said she found his comment unnecessary

she didn’t get in front of him but i let her in front of me .and she has the balls to be disorganized .which caused her to take longer .should have figured she would be since she was showing up so late to something everyone knows you’re suppose to show up early for