working out

i know i need to work out .and i feel better after i have worked out .but for some reason i absolutely hate doing it .i don't get why either .i mean if i feel better after working out not only physically and mentally why wouldn't i want to work out more often .or at least not procrastinate about doing it

about 4 years ago i bought a bowflex home gym .and i love it .it does work as the infomercials say .i paid about $2,000 for it .used it for about two years straight .then it was like a switch was flicked in my and i no longer wanted to use it .i felt great about myself while i was using it .my confidence was higher and self image even had more energy .i had gone from a scrawny little weakling of bean pole to a fatty .and then using my bowflex i went from a fatty from lack of exercise to pretty darn muscular guy .i didn't loose weight though .rather gained it .but i was happy having gained it because it was all muscle that i had gained .i went from 200 pounds of flab to 210 pounds of muscle .and i liked having the muscles and feeling of strength

not having worked out for about two years now i've lost a lot of muscle .my bi ceps went from 15 inches to 13 and my chest from 42 to 40 .from a large A cup of muscle to a large small A cup of fat .and all of that still doesn't lite the fire or put the boot to my ass to get me to start working out like i use to