i feel like crap

if you've read some of my blogs you should know i have chronic fatigue syndrome and that i sleep a lot .not only that but i hate that i sleep a lot .yesterday i slept all day .well not all day but i might as well have .i woke up yesterday around 12:30pm .and stayed awake for a little while .but felt sleep calling me back so i gave in and went around 2:30pm and stayed asleep for the rest of the day and then the rest of the night .that's 8 hours of sleep till 12:30pm and then another 18 hours of sleep till i woke up this morning .i hate it .i know when i sleep this much i feel like crap when i finally do get up .i really hate it .and to make it worse people i know still think i fake it .how in the hell would anyone fake 26 hours of almost straight sleep? i don't know anyone who could .but yet people in my own family think i can control it .why the hell would i even want to sleep so much if i was acting? what on earth would i have to gain in life by only sleeping it away? not only that but it kinda hurts to think that the people who love you unconditionally don't believe you have this sleep problem .i don't know .its a pain in the ass having chronic fatigue syndrome is a pain in the ass .its really no wonder i'm on antidepressants only doing enough to keep me from totally breaking down